I’ve always had so many interests in life that it has been difficult to focus in on one thing to build skills and express talent. I have been editing and book indexing since 1995, so there’s one thing.
But now, at age sixty, I’m interested in moving into a more contemplative and spirit-connected way of spending what’s left of my current stay in space-time.
So, I was thinking about skills vs. talents. I have lots of great skills now: editing, proofreading, organizing information (I can organize almost anything). All intellectual tasks. All about making judgment calls. All about working on other people’s creative efforts and therefore derivative.
Skills, of course, are the main thing that gets covered in things like job interviews and career counseling. They reflect experience and accumulated expertise in doing something. But is it what I want to be doing? And does it reflect my actual talents?
My actual talents (beyond the intellectual sphere) are difficult to analyze, to list, just because they are intuitive, empathic, tactile (I’m a hugger). I think that’s one of the reasons I’ve been reluctant to move into using these talents more: I keep trying to apply the resume approach.
Feels safer, going with the mental processes I know that “society” accepts. Forgetting what I know, even though I can’t always explain how I know certain universal things. That’s it! Anxiety has always made me over-explain to make sure people understand and don’t get mad at me. Always hedging my emotional bets to keep the peace. Because other people’s anxiety amplifies mine.
The irony is that my attempts to over-explain usually annoy people. There you go. Expressions from anxiety are just the thing to amplify other folks’ anxieties. They can feel the energy just like I can. Oh, duh!
So, what would happen if I countered anxiety with calm? I have this talent for projecting calm when I choose, usually around folks I’m not afraid of annoying. Hmmm. Since I intuitively know the beneficence of the universe as a whole, why not just project calm all the time, even around folks who are already anxious? Wonder what would happen if I did that?
This is the kind of talent that is best shown, not explained. Hence, my procrastination for about forty years in settling into expressing this talent for seeing the biggest picture there is. I know I don’t need to explain, but I like to chat, and so my interest in Tarot. The archetypal symbols in the cards give me a set of prompts to channel what I know into words for the person who asks the question, whether it’s me or someone else. But I can see that I need to pursue this channel in the physical world. Face-to-face reading is my best method for expressing my true talent. I can speak, but also hug.
So, if you feel like there’s something not easily explainable that you be or do, take a closer look and feel at this talent, and think about how best to channel it without worrying about explaining. The transformation of your own insides will be tremendous, and your healing effect on others—priceless.
Signposts Along the Hermit’s Path
Got two recommendations for you. First is Jean Hamilton-Fford’s Adventure into You. Jean takes the idea of conversation to whole new depths to see what your life’s adventure can really be.
And for a look at the universal picture of our role as humans healing each other into a better world, check out Steve and Barbara Rother’s messages and community at espavo.org.